Among the worst periods of my life

July 2021 - November 2022

The second half of 2022 will be threaded much more carefully. -- スレナガ, 25/12/2021


Complete and utter failure to maintain even a skeleton of a schedule. And it was all my fault.

In July, I completed another stage in my academic journey. The outcome was better than expected, considering the circumstances. My situation was finally stabilizing but I needed to focus. As soon as I began my hiatus, all these offers popped up and I couldn't say no. What I thought would be a month extended to two, then three. Attempts at slipping off always degraded to employers holding me down for more. My life spiraled out of control and, when I came to myself, another half a year had passed... Total failure.

Eventually, with my life completely on hold, I had to make a choice: which part-time was I going to keep, which ones to ax.
Below, my experiences along this period, in no particular order:

Workplace ⓐ

Working at a discount, for decent people in a bind.

It's both disheartening and fascinating to watch a new hire degrade workplace conditions, monopolize certain tasks, do them incorrectly and evade its fair share of heavy labour, while senior staff do nothing but hesitantly trade remarks about the new hire's work ethic. Performing personality transplants is not in my contract, but a 2 weeks notice is. With the ever-increasing list of grievances and general shitty atmosphere created by this gremlin go unpunished, I decided to cut ties as diplomatically as possible.

"But スレナガ, this is a little sudden. We need time to fill your position. Can you give us an extra two months?"

And who am I to refuse?
Or rather, why can't I refuse?

And then my employer kept asking me for more days. Despite having fond memories of a previous stint, things were close to turning sour. Which I am certain was an avenue explored by this new hire to turn people against me, considering how weirdly cold some co-workers became by the end. Its incredible how, despite all its obvious flaws, it still hoarded to itself impressive social sway. Didn't work on me, but not having the liberty to tell something to sod off can really put a strain on my psyche.

As I left, I predicted to myself it wouldn't last three months.
It didn't last two, but only because it left to greater heights。 くやしい。 羨ましい。 Here is something that had its course very well planned out.



Workplace ⓑ

If there's a schedule that needs to be filled and you have the time, come and do it

Very impersonal. Made some OK workplace relationships but it's the type of place you're in if you need a bit of extra cash, so people come and go very frequently. Schedules are unreliable, so it's not the kind of place to leave to consideration if I want to guarantee a steady, fixed income. Didn't even need to give notice, I simply warned management that I probably would stop coming and went on with my day.



Workplace ⓒ

Come work with us if you want the full-time experience working part-time!

Incredibly stressful. Much like the other places I was working at, they knew I only wanted a part-time but still contacted me with a full-time offer. I kept pushing for part-time and they conceded, but they kept asking for more and more extra hours and piling on top of me responsibilities that I did not want, but did not refuse. They also required a full month's notice, and I provided.

"You see スレナガ, you gave us your month's notice but we forgot to file it, can you send it to us again?
Also, unless you want to lose half a month's pay, it only counts if you present it at the beginning of the month, so you'll have to work another month with us."

Everyone hated management. I left no different.



Workplace ⓓ

Two full days of the week for very good pay

Probably the stint in which I grew the most. I was given the opportunity to introduce a modest amount of procedures that made everyone's lives easier. And they gave me extra cash as thanks! And then they hired not one, but two people with a penchant for evading their obligations.

Despite the perks and good standing I was cultivating for myself, I was still but a part-timer. I was conflicted about how to proceed but, ultimately, it's not my job to keep tabs on whether or not people are doing their work. This workplace required a full month's notice and I complied, in the most diplomatic way possible.

"スレナガ, you're a valuable member of our team and we're sad to see you go.
We're prepared to offer a slight reduction in your work hours, as well as a slight increase in your salary.
Is there nothing we can do to keep you with us?"

I wavered, but were I to finally rat them out, not only would word come out that I'm the type to snitch, I would have certainly been given extra responsibilities that would tie me even further to this workplace, making the slight extra money worthless. It would take a lot more than they were willing to offer to buy me peace of mind.

"But can you give us an extra month?"

As I left, I predicted to myself that at least one of the two would not last until the end of the year. I was right.



Workplace ⓔ

Strictest place, with defined rules, slightly above average pay and flexible schedules

This was the easy choice. People keep mostly to themselves but interactions are generally positive. Finding ways to ditch your tasks is not easy, so everyone is putting in a fair share of work. Still, it is the place in which I have to keep NORP appearances the best that I can, and that can be a little stressing.




I tremble with fear whenever this sentence pops up.

As for Japanese, I managed to keep up with Anki, which is too little to allow progress. However, I managed to get in touch with an artist from an island-nation in the orient that I consider part of doujin royalty, and have since been providing my humble support. This has helped me practice a bit. I am honored that this group continues to tolerate my presence, although I am perfectly aware that a time will soon come when I'll become disposable. Until then, I shall enjoy this experience to the fullest.

Exercise sessions became even less frequent. I was putting effort into bridge progression, successfully performing wall bridges, but then it all went out of whack.
Bike trips once every two weeks, performing the basic bridge to not forget it and little else.

As for piano training?

My piano broke!

I'm currently taking care of it, but it's not like I practiced a whole lot in the last half year...

And then I neglected this webpage in my attempt to redirect time to the things that made me open it in the first place. Fate had other plans. I haven't even written a word about Flying Witch. It's so easy to talk trash about the things I hate, but it's extremely difficult to praise the things I love. To stray from perfection is an insult against that which nears it.

Here's to hoping 2023 is a year of lazy times to enjoy,
together with you!



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