I bought a smartphone;
I travelled abroad;
I had sex for the first time on a date that wasn't exactly a date and almost had an existential crisis;
Believing this could only mean heterosexuality isn't for me, I went for the gay experience;
Date with an effeminate "sub" guy wasn't exactly a date. I couldn't come close without feeling it was somehow wrong;
The attempt with somoene playing the "man" of the pair almost made me consider letting him have something,
purely out of respect for being the only one to actually go on a date;
It still felt wrong and, even though it pained me to snub somoene who actually made an effort, I didn't let him have anything.
I enjoy my personal pursuits, enjoy being by myself and sex is overrated.
But I still want to start a family. Have children.
I might be fundamentally broken by unrealistic expectations.
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